Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Happy Moments
For the last few days I've been Mister Negative Nancy (only in the gay world would "Nancy" be preceded by "Mister"). There are a number of reasons for that, mostly due to the situation at home that has left me unhappy with myself and the way I've dealt with things over the last year. Fortunately, though, I got tagged by Janvier to come up with some happy memories, and thinking through that (as well as getting support from my peeps, and making some progress at home) has helped pull me out of my funk. Somewhat. I think I'm only sinking up to my ankles now instead of my shoulders.
He didn't specify how many happy memories or put a time frame to them, so I'm going to just list the first 10 that came to mind, in no particular order:
- doing a "giant stride" off the back of a boat in the Caribbean, wearing my scuba gear and headed for 40 feet down, and thinking in mid-stride "THIS is where I belong."
- the first time I told Adrian I loved him: at the 2002 Winter Olympics, after watching the Men's Figure Skating Finals, on Valentines Day.
- subbing for another professor one day and after class having one of his students come up and hand me a note that said "You are an excellent teacher. Never stop doing this."
- the airplane pulling into the gate as I arrived home from Iraq in 2005.
- dancing at Heaven in London to Geri Halliwell's "Lift Me Up."
- the moment I realized that being over 40 doesn't make me too old for anything at all.
- walking out of a Bangkok coffee house with Raberd at 3am and having him take my arm as we walked down the street.
- coming home from a business trip this spring to find that a new book -- with a chapter by me -- had arrived in the mail.
- sneaking out of the hotel, then calling Adrian from the US Tennis Center while we were on a trip to New York and saying "get out of bed, I just got us tickets to the US Open and it starts in 3 hours."
- walking around KL my second day there, waiting for an SMS from Eddie about when he was arriving, and walking into the hotel to find him in the lobby.
Lots more out there, of course, and while I can remember flashes where I thought "wow, I am so happy right now," I am having trouble with the details. Thanks, Janvier, for making me do that.
And since it's so theraputic, I'm going to tag these people so they can enjoy the feeling as well:
Tracy, because he can always use happy thoughts.
Jase, because he had a bad day last week.
Faustus, because I don't think he will do it and I want him to surprise me.
Mr BunnyBan, because I want to know what he's thinking inside that cute head of his.
Aryaduta, because grad students need all the happy thoughts they can get.
He didn't specify how many happy memories or put a time frame to them, so I'm going to just list the first 10 that came to mind, in no particular order:
- doing a "giant stride" off the back of a boat in the Caribbean, wearing my scuba gear and headed for 40 feet down, and thinking in mid-stride "THIS is where I belong."
- the first time I told Adrian I loved him: at the 2002 Winter Olympics, after watching the Men's Figure Skating Finals, on Valentines Day.
- subbing for another professor one day and after class having one of his students come up and hand me a note that said "You are an excellent teacher. Never stop doing this."
- the airplane pulling into the gate as I arrived home from Iraq in 2005.
- dancing at Heaven in London to Geri Halliwell's "Lift Me Up."
- the moment I realized that being over 40 doesn't make me too old for anything at all.
- walking out of a Bangkok coffee house with Raberd at 3am and having him take my arm as we walked down the street.
- coming home from a business trip this spring to find that a new book -- with a chapter by me -- had arrived in the mail.
- sneaking out of the hotel, then calling Adrian from the US Tennis Center while we were on a trip to New York and saying "get out of bed, I just got us tickets to the US Open and it starts in 3 hours."
- walking around KL my second day there, waiting for an SMS from Eddie about when he was arriving, and walking into the hotel to find him in the lobby.
Lots more out there, of course, and while I can remember flashes where I thought "wow, I am so happy right now," I am having trouble with the details. Thanks, Janvier, for making me do that.
And since it's so theraputic, I'm going to tag these people so they can enjoy the feeling as well:
Tracy, because he can always use happy thoughts.
Jase, because he had a bad day last week.
Faustus, because I don't think he will do it and I want him to surprise me.
Mr BunnyBan, because I want to know what he's thinking inside that cute head of his.
Aryaduta, because grad students need all the happy thoughts they can get.
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You have plenty of happy memories! :D We're glad if it did you some good now.
We won't tell you to snap out of the blues because sometimes you need to go through with it, but you've got lots of good memories and friends ya. :D
We won't tell you to snap out of the blues because sometimes you need to go through with it, but you've got lots of good memories and friends ya. :D
aryaduta: glad you enjoyed the meme. i see you've tagged me now!
qr: can't it be both? :P
sam: yeah, and he has...guess I'll accept his October 8th entry as an answer to this tag. :P
janvier: memories I have, and snapping out of the blues is happening now. Though shouldn't a "snap" be faster?
jason: yes, I'm very lucky that way!
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qr: can't it be both? :P
sam: yeah, and he has...guess I'll accept his October 8th entry as an answer to this tag. :P
janvier: memories I have, and snapping out of the blues is happening now. Though shouldn't a "snap" be faster?
jason: yes, I'm very lucky that way!
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